I need answers

It's been a hell of a long time since I wrote here. One special girl named Kika reminded me that, so thank you!

There is a reason why I'm writing here again. I just need to put my thoughts and therefore a bit of sorrow somewhere.

Lately some people have asked me If I have a boyfriend or not. It didn't bother me very much, 'til one guy asked why it is that I don't have someone. He said that I'm such a great girl. And since then I've been obsessed with the thoughts about it. Where lies the problem? In the guys? In me? And what makes me even more upset is that I DON'T KNOW! And don't like not knowing. I had a guy from Sweden, it didn't work out. But at home? Isn't there anyone for me?

I know it is a little problem compared to the hunger etc, but after being alone for such a long time I need someone beside me. You understand, don't you?

Another sleepless night...