Danger.

One of my friendships is breaking and what is making me mad the most is the fact that it seems to me like the other part isn't even interested in saving it from sinking. And even though I gave a hint that something is wrong, it didn't work. I am confused and I miss her so much. I just don't get it.

Now I'm feeling truly better.

Visiting the concert of Metsatöll and Kukerpillid was exactly what I needed. I got to live out in it's truest meaning. Thank You once again Mari and Janeli for coming with me! Although I woke up with the worst neck pain ever I'm still satisfied! I think Metsatöll got a new fan!
And I got to see my "daughter" Piia after such a long time. She has grown up in so many ways and I really felt like an idiot listening to her wise thoughts. She helped me a lot getting over some issues I have. Thanks to talking to her and thanks to that letter I found in my mailbox I'm leveled again. Hopefully for a longer time.
Christmas are coming.. and I can't wait to get out of town. To my grandma's. Where I can wear whatever I want, do whatever I want and If I get the chance I can do some hard labour! Maybe chopping some wood or something. Aah. That's life! =)
Ahaa. And I'm going to see my honeys tonight! Unfortunately 3 of them not, but hopefully we'll get the gang together for New Year's. My bestest thoughts to Pärnumaa where 2 of them are and one special thought to Kivi street! =)

Funny little world with funny little people in it.

Well. I'm tired as hell, I have to come back to work in the evening. Good news is I don't have any hot water or any central heating today at home. Plus I feel a cold coming and breaking me down. A cold room won't help a bit. But yet I'm not sad or mad. I'm more like.. numb. No feelings whatsoever. I think it's a good thing because it's an improvement. At least I'm not spreading anger.. Some people surprised me yesterday. Some in a really good way and some in not so good way. I'm just afraid of that downhill spiral that is waiting one of them. It's the little things that count in that case. Someone always gets hurt. Intentionally or unintentionally. I'm just hoping for good... .... something something.

Igav.

Väljakutset on mu ellu vaja. Baah.